Back To You

I always end up having the same thoughts every now and then. Minsan gusto mo kumawala sa isang tao kahit alam kong mahirap na eh masakit pa. I never outgrew my fear of ending up hurting more than I can handle. Siguro pinanganak lang talaga akong matigas ang ulo.

Just got back from Bora last night and it was fun, well at least most of the time it was. Di naman tlaga nawawala ang dull moments plus being the drama-queen that I am, syempre sumpong pa rin pagka-tampuhin ko. Well, I enjoyed spending time with the most special person in my life but it got me thinking as well. This was the longest stretch of time na we've been together. 4 days and 3 nights. We got to speak a lot and I appreciated it. So much  so that I can still recall some of the words he said. "Maswerte ka nga na syo ako". I don't know how I should feel about this line. I've been with a lot of partners in my life, and hell do i know that even though I may not be much of a person, may mga ibang tao pa rin na willing to be with me. I don't know If I should get offended or not. Naisip ko sa totoo lang ( said this to him as well, mas subtle lng), maswerte rin naman sya sa akin siguro kahit paano. Siguro sa dami ng mga tao na pwede namin maging partner, may dahilan lang talaga why we met and why were still together. This is the longest I've been with someone.

There's a strong indication that another storm is bound to happen between the two of us. May nalaman na naman kasi ako. Sana naman wag na. Kasi baka this time, when my decision is made; it's gonna be final. I might end up bruised and hurting pero I have always been a survivor. Duwag ako oo, pero it doesn't stop me from being less of a person. The person that I am knows when to stop and when to let go. Hoping for the best pa rin...