Back from Hiatus

Just like the title, I just wanna shout out "I'm back from hiatus!".

It's been eons since my last post. Didn't event think I'd ever go back to blogging. A friend of mine here in our office recently came up with one of her own and this got me thinking of reviving mine. 'Been thinking of how I'd spend my idle time here in the office, and what better way is there apart from blogging?

Better wait for my next few posts...I've lots of stories to tell. Hope it's worth your wait...

a myriad of emotions

Got a weird mixed set of emotions and feelings within me. I'm so confused with the way I'm supposed to feel right now. My so-called "special someone" just reached a milestone in his life. Got a text message expressing gratitude -- that's all I got. Should I be happy that atleast that person exerted effort to thank me? If your answer is yes, then I have no right no complain. I wanted so much to spend atleast a few minutes of that day with that person. I wanted to show how proud I was.

Naah! I'm just a tiny speck of dust in that person's vast universe. The least thing that I want to happen is to be blown away. I would just have to content myself into waiting again for the time that that person would want to spend a few minutes with me. I am so hurting inside...PROBLEM is I don't know if I have the right to be hurt.

sexy, naughty, bitchy who?

Went to my highschool batch's reunion party. Can't really help but wonder on whatever happenned to some. The once gorgeous turned out to be such a monstrosity, while to some relief some managed to bloom with age. It's been a good 10 years since we graduated from highschool. There were some that I missed and a lot of whom I totally missed out on, I mean I didn't even know such a person existed...


Anyway,what's with Filipinos and weight issues? Why does it always have to be the first thing they comment on? Puro na lng " tumaba ka!" or "taba mo ngayon ah!" were all I heard. Yes, I did gain weight but I am no obese monster!!!

Decided to go bar-hopping in Malate after the reunion. I haven't gone bar-hopping for ages (ages= a few months), a lot has changed. I felt old for a minute but then again, the phoenix has risen one more time. I realized that I can still be part of the hip crowd. Just like before, there were still people taking double-glances and even swooning over me...hehehe!

I tried to enjoy and actually did enjoy that night out. Tried to trample on deep dark thoughts on an unhappy lovelife. Bwahahaha! I can be such a sentimental fool!
My lovelife has always been a whirlpool of people and emotions. Now is not exactly a walk in the park. I don't know what's with me and intimacy. One day I'd be crying out to the whole-wide world to get one the next day I'd be shoving that person away. Hey, give me a break, everybody's afraid of getting hurt.

birthday mo?

My supervisor is celebrating his birthday today.

Our team, my office friends rather (almost no one else in the team volunteered to help); thought of giving him a present. Of course the team has no choice but to share in the expenses. Kami na nga napagod, kami pa rin lang ba ang gagastos? We are not that stupid my dear. In the past few days, the boys in the office have been playing basketball (including my Sup) and I overheard him say that he's planning to buy a basketball that's why we decided on getting him one. I never knew those rubber thingies can be so expensive!

As for me, I never really celebrated my birthdays. Just started celebrating for the sake of my friends. College na ko when i started celebrating it. My family was never really into birthday parties. Gastos! (sigh)

of broken promises and denials

How can I be so stupid to get myself to believing that one person with a whole lot of history in breaking promises can change in an instant?! I really don't know why I am so gullible. I easily believe that a sinner can turn into a saint the same way as Clark Kent turns into Superman.
I went out last night (as always!) and agreed to meet up with this liar(bitter!)who stood me up in the past for the nth time. Yeah we did see each other but we never got to talk. TALK. The primary reason why I agreed to see that liar again even though I had serious doubts. That person had me go to our common friend's house supposedly to talk with me. We were supposed to talk about us getting together. How the fuck does that liar think we can talk if there were dozens of people in the same room as we were!!! Obviously that person thinks that I can easily fall prey to the ploy. I will not allow myself to get bewildered and drunk in a house party and let that liar stand victorious with a ploy to get us together. I am not an easy prey!

but then again, im not such an angel myself...

Everyone must have felt this way at least once in their lives. Getting caught red-handed (well, almost!). Someone reading through the messages in your cellphone and seeing some private messages you forgot to delete. Nothing kinky though, just some kinda flirty messages. The best way to go about it, DENIAL.

VISUAL DNA

Found a site that let's you create your Visual DNA. Just found it quite interesting...

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

TGIP (Thank God It's Payday) or atleast I wish!

Added a little music to live liven up the mood a bit...

Thank goodness it's payday, I seem to have been ransacked these past few days. Ran out of money. Tightened my belt way too tight for comfort.

Just one question: When do i get to have a decent lovelife?

What seems to be the matter with me? Why do i get involved in people who are either way too old for me or the exact opposite (almost always); youngsters!!!

I almost felt a sigh of relief last week. Well, almost. I was out to meet up with someone almost my age for a change. I don't really go for textmates but since this person and I have a common friend, we decided to go for a meet-up. We met at Starbucks Greenbelt 3 and went for coffee at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf (weird noh?!). Yeah, we had a nice conversation; even figuring out that we knew a lot of other people in common. Problem? utterly not my type. Need I say more?

Well, I do have a partner already. I know this sounds cheesy, but I'm still out to seek for "THE ONE" (iced tea ito!). I've been with my partner for more than a year already but I'm still desperate (just nearly though) to find someone really meant for me. Don't be a judgemental fool and tell me that I should get contented! I'm just not feeling the same way towards my partner the way I did before. Just not the same old person I loved. I tried being nice, being demanding, being vocal; being everything!. Been there, done that! To no avail. Done deal. Now, would you dare point fingers at me? I never aspired for a fairy tale, but good heavens give me one decent partner please!

Have a wonderful weekend guys!!